Before I start writing the next article, I want to thank all of u – Adi, Avi, Avishkar, Anupam, (specially) for carrying this forward so well. I introduced the idea and you guys just keep adding on to it to make it more n more wonderful and better with every passing day.
After so many beautiful things that have come up in these few articles, I don’t know what should I write that would impress you..
Not only you, but all of us have been really really impressed by the articles which have come up from all the master minds in the last few days. So today rather than starting up with writing something new about you, I’d rather extend something that’s written before. As Avishkar has already mentioned in his blog “you have set the standards for how a nice girl should be”, lemme take it forward from there. For me, yes you are the standard of how a girl should ideally be… You’re a beloved daughter, a loving sister, a caring friend, a thorough professional, a dedicated worker n what not.. And the best part is that you manage all these roles so well. I always believed that it’s impossible for a person to keep everyone happy. But then when I look at you, I give this a second thought. You force me to believe that what I believe is not true. You keep everyone happy n that too without putting in any extra effort n this is what makes me think.. “Wish I could be like her…!!!”
And now, since I’m writing all this, let me admit it today Dear, that I’m really jealous of you. I seriously am.. But then there’s a saying – ‘You are always jealous of people you like.’ N you toh I just love you. But then you know you‘re so nice that I really wish I could be like you. Wish I could keep people happy like you do, wish I could be there for everyone like you are, wish I could do justice to all my roles in life. When I look at you, I realize that you are just perfect with every role that you play in life. And that makes me look at myself and say that I am so much into a mismanaged state.
But you know what Sowmya, I sometimes wonder.. Don’t you get fed up with doing things for others all the time..?? I mean how do you manage to take out time for yourself, when all your time is dedicated to others. But then I get the answer too. What gives you happiness is the happiness of others. And that’s why u don’t ever need time for yourself. That the huge difference which exists between you and the others. People do things for others so that others r happy. You do things for others so that you be happy.
That’s your USP and that s the reason which I come to understand now.. That’s why nobody can be like you. Even though you see me mirror yourself many-a-times, but I know for myself that I can never be like you. You are too little human for any human to imitate you. The perfect word for you still remains “Angel”.. And I’m sure none of us can find a better word to beat that one.. No one can ever take this away from you.. But if in my next birth God gave me a chance, I’d love to take away this title from you.. J.. Thank you Angel for being there…
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You know moti when I read this post I didn’t know whether to laugh or to shed a tear. What you wrote and the way you wrote it was so touching that i sat numb for a minute or two......and at the same time the irony of the whole thing made me want to laugh.
You know what the irony is, moti, that what you wrote here is exactly what i feel about you. I have always wanted to be like YOU!
I always wanted to tell you this but never had the courage to (trust me it takes a lot of courage to be able to confess it...and hats off to you that u could muster up the courage to be able to do so).
Remember the day you showed me your sister's message...and I said I could understand how she felt. That day I really could empathize with what she said.. More than I let you know actually… In fact she put into words what I felt. Since then (actually since before that) I have been trying to confess that while I look up to you for so many things, somewhere somehow I also envy you...but like I said I didn’t have the courage it required from me...I always shied away thinking it was too stupid a thing to say.
Now that I am on the roll I think I can go all the way and complete my confession.. Remember how I always kept telling you that according to me you are the most perfect girl I know… You took it lightly...but I meant it...every word of it. You are this sweet, bubbly, confident girl who always knows what she is doing and what has to be done. Somehow you always manage to emerge a winner in every situation. You are this dedicated, hard working girl who has amazed us all more than once with that you have managed to achieve. You are a perfect people’s person too. People love being with you. And you are always there for ALL of us whenever we need you (inspite of your busy schedule). For all this and a zillion other reasons people love you (I am on the list too!!). You have always been special and you really deserve to be. Which is probably why I saw myself inadequate in comparison to you. I wanted to be like you.
It took me time but I realized that there can only be one Moti, which is why she is so special. Try as I might I can never be like you. (Though of course I can learn a lot from you and try and improve myself). And yes, I can always thank my stars to have found such a wonderful friend in you.
Thanks once again moti….for being exactly what you are.
Tambu.. Thank you so much..
I hope you know how i m feeling right now.. N if not u ll know once u try n imagine how a person feels when he s bein praised by his ideal. Yes thats exactly how i feel today.
Somewhere i donno, but there was always a guilty feeling around, bcoz i thought it was bad to envy a friend but now i know that since i envy you i tend to learn a lot from you, which makes me what i am today.
Love u..
Hehehehe.. I know the grass is always greener on the other side na!
You are right moti, even I realized that. Earlier I used to hate myself for envying someone I love so much. But then, now I have realized that it is because I appreciated something in you so much that I wanted it to be an integral part of me. I wanted to be as good as you are...and it is always good to want to improve right? And it is also true that my looking up at you has only brought me closer to you. It made me want to learn from you. And that has done me a lot of good.
So it seems, people are not completely right in saying envy is a negative emotion, are they?
Yes Sweetheart.. I completely agree with u.. V ve proved a negative emotion to be positive.. See thats the magic of v being together..
Nyways whatever it is, we know for ourselves that v love each other.. ANd i think thats more than enuf
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