Day 15: The Angel & the Dwarf

Many have written about you in this blog, some once, some many times. A few have even been invited to write. But what I am about to write can’t be written by anyone else. Even if they wanted to, even if they tried, they do not have my position, my point of view, my capacity, or my expertise on this matter. Only I have the power to put in print these words.

You will wonder why? What is it about you, which only I know to the largest extent? What is it that no one has experienced as much as I have? Which facet of this diamond have only I been deemed worthy of? I will explain.

You see, out of all your friends, past, present, and I am sure even the ones to come, I have been, am, and will be, the person who troubles you, irritates you, frustrates you, gets on your nerves, drives you to the edge, the most. And all this at the same time, not turn by turn.

The others? Well, they can’t even get close, even if they tried. And some have. But the good people that they are, I am sure they aren’t taking conscious efforts to do all of these things to you, like I am sure you have wondered whether I was, on occasions.

And so I repeat, only I can have written these words, because only I have tested the limits, the farthest boundaries, of your patience.

And you know what, even after exploring the vast frontier of your patience for the last couple of months (mostly, but I had started long before that, I know), even after putting the limits of your patience to the best or the worst of tests (depends, you know, from where you look at it), I admit that I haven’t yet reached them, even once. I mean I will confess, that once or twice, if I had used a set of binoculars to look for them, I might just have gotten a glimpse of the boundaries, but never once have they come within reach. So forget about crossing them.

Babu, your patience is so friggin vast; mankind can raise a whole civilisation in it, once we run out of habitable land on Earth.

IknowthattobetruebecauseIhavetriedtocrowdyourpatiencemorethanthegullies
ofDadar,orthebackroadsofDharavi,ortheshelvesofmyoverstuffedcupboard.But,
believemewhenIsay,thatthereisalwaysroomformore,alotmore…

You see how I don’t give you space, Sowmya? But you went through the whole thing nevertheless, didn’t you? Just goes to prove my point. Thank you.

Because that’s what you do. Stick together through it all. Until the person realises that he is in it deep and that he needs to come out. And then you help him come out. That’s your master stroke.

And it’s not as if you don’t have a choice. Or many choices, for that matter. Its just that for you there is no space for the wrong choice. That’s one thing your patience does not have a room for. Wrong choices.

(I’m sure you remember this joke we keep on repeating.

Once, a dwarf went to the doctor and said that he was getting tired of being so short and tiny and that it was getting on his nerves. So can the doc do something about it please? And quickly?

The doctor said, there was something that could be done, it was, in fact, very easy. The dwarf will just have to be A Little Patient.)

I’m looking for that dwarf, searching for him. If I ever happen to find him, I am going to introduce him to you. After that, looking at how patient you are, I’m sure he wouldn’t mind being A Little Patient, would he?

I know you keep on saying you are very impatient with me. And I know this reads like a very idealistic, fictitious article. But no its not. It’s true. You may be human in other matters, but when it comes to patience, you are an angel.

My angel.

Day 14: Instructions for Sowmya

After we met yesterday & started talking, my mind again started wandering and I felt my flow of thoughts taking me to the same place – your blog. I was waiting all this time for this spark to ignite in me so that I could start writing again. You can give the credit for this to Aditya and Avishkar.

We were talking about you yesterday and Avishkar just mentioned that there’s one thing he’s learned from. He said “I was astonished to see that this girl only knows how to give and give selflessly.” (That’s why he calls you Miss India.. see I told you the secret behind it ;)). On that Adi replied with a very beautiful thought. He said, “We become happy when someone gives us; this girl becomes happy when she gives.” After listening to their thoughts, these words still remained registered in my mind and so today I start to write my new article on this.

I was just looking back on how much and what not you’ve actually given us dear. Most important thing - your time, always, forever.. You’ve always been available for everyone of us at any given time… apart from when your not answering calls and not replying to sms’s.. ;) I mean you have such a lot to do, there’s so much more you can actually do, but u still prefer spending time with us doing nothing.. And if we are not available at any given time, you wont even complain.. Now that’s what I call giving selflessly.

Moreover, be it any occasion or even not an occasion, you’ll be the first one to initiate a way to celebrate. If any of us are feeling blue, that’s bound to happen. You’ll find ways to spend time with us and make sure we are alrite. And we selfish people, sometimes, don’t even bother to understand what’s up at your end. You’ll make everyone around you much more important than yourself and make them feel special. But then what bout U..?? Well, you never care. And that is how, and that is why you’ve been so important to all of us.

Sometimes you even give away the time you need to spend with others to us. I mean imagine in the last one year, how much time have u spent with us n how much with all the others. You’ll keep thinking of ways to make everyone feel special, even when we are out of sight, sometimes even when it’s not required. It’s just your words that do the magic. And most important, there’s nothing, absolutely nothing you expect.

Don’t you ever turn around to yourself and ask a question that why is Sowmya Ponnada so unfair to herself..?? Why do u yourself don’t get things which you give to others..?? Why do you don’t treat yourself as special as you treat the others..?? Why do you don’t believe in yourself as you do in others..??

Ever thought of all this sweetheart??

I m sure your answer to this is going to be No.. So here’s another reminder (an eye-opener, shall I say..??) for you to now stop giving to others and start giving yourself. Look in the mirror and tell yourself that alrite from today Sowmya is gonna be nice to herself, much much more than she is to others.

Rememebr the mails that we exchanged in these few days. I kept telling you that look and observe others and learn. Yes sweetheart, this is just an extension to what I said before. You are too too naïve to be born in this world as a human being. But since you are, you have to learn how to tackle people. You can’t keep being nice to people all the time. Sometimes you gotta be a little harsh on them in order that they be nice to you. N that way u ll be nice to urself. Hope you get what I m tryin to convey sweetheart